new beginnings

so now that a new year has begun and my i have become more in love with writing and being more articulate with it, i have decided to have a fresh start with a new blogggggg!!!

wewt!
i'll miss you blogspot. i really will. you were so easy to deal with. but i'm on to bigger and better things. (hopefully)

my new blog!

eat your hearts out.
i've always hated that phrase...

this is why i love my friends.

just spent the past fifteen minutes as jellison time.
via facebook.
i'm in san antonio.
they're in dallas (probably one room away from each other).
i'm trying to stifle laughs because i'm in the same room as my 29 year old brother.
why?

because we're stalking my ex-boyfriends.
picking the ugliest pictures of them.
posting them for da four to see.
laughing my pants off.

this little guy started it all.

mama mia

so as soon as i got home to dallas, my mom tells me that we're driving to san antonio first thing in the morning so that we can be with my brother, sister-in-law, niece and the new baby. so i literally got to spend about 8 hours at home (most of them spent sleeping) before i was gone again. how sad. but i'm more than happy to be spending time with my brother's family! their daughter is pure joy and now that she's 2, it's great to play with her and make her laugh because she can talk to us clearly and laugh and it's just the best. being with my niece has made me realize that i am NOT at all ready to be a mom and my mother can testify to that. every time anything happens, without fail, i'll yell for my mom to come deal with it. i've been trying to get better (more like my mom is telling me no and forcing me to do things myself) but seriously, there's no way that i'll be having kids anytime soon. not only can i not handle it, but i just want to spend a few solid years with my husband living the newlywed life.

anyway, it's 77 degrees and sunny here in the south and i am loving every bit of it.

season's greetings.

5 days and counting.

chris p. nugget

holy guac.

so i just spent the weekend in california for my best friend's wedding. i am literally OBSESSED with california. the weather was splendid. i couldn't believe that it was december and it felt like that outside. i've totally forgotten what warm weather feels like, seeing that i've been in utah for a good five months straight. i was elated to get away from the cold weather. california and texas have been a dream boat for me. anyway, back to the wedding, it was perfect for the couple. they could care less about all the huge fancy details and they really did focus on what was most important: the fact that they were married in the san diego temple. it's any girls dream come true to get married in a castle and be a princess for a day and that's definitely what she got. they are insanely perfect for each other and it made me really excited for the day when i find the perfect person for me and i can get married to them for time and all eternity. i think i'm almost to the point of being ready to seriously date someone and just fall head over heels for a boy. so bring it.

i'd rather be caught naked...

OH MY GOSH!
I'm obsessed with my life right now. This sounds obnoxious but seriously.
So first of all, 3 more days until I leave Utah!!
I'll be spending Friday, Saturday and part of Sunday in California for my best friend's wedding. Then I go home to Texas on Sunday night. I seriously CANNOT wait. I'm dying to be back home. It's been way way way too long. It's basically gotten to the point where I don't care about anything else that is happening in my life. Finals? Out the window. Kind of. I'm not stressed, I'm just wanting to get everything over with. And I happen to have a new boy in my life. What perfect timing. I know my last blog post was about another boy in my life, but sometimes things happen and your mind gets cleared, very easily, might I add.
So let me just give a quick synopsis of how all of this happened:
First Sunday in my ward, I spot a super cute boy. I immediately call dibs on him (in my mind). Couldn't keep my eyes off of him all during sacrament meeting. Then that Sunday we have a ward social and we do the whole go around in a ginormica circle and introduce ourselves. As if anyone is going to remember anything from doing that, but anyway, I remember him introducing himself and keeping some of his shared facts in the back of my mind. So this was all in August. Throughout the next couple of months all I did was look at him. Creepy, I know. But he was just so adorable! Then one Sunday he accompanied a girl who was singing on the piano. He's an amazing pianist. So I decided to go up to him after sacrament meeting and tell him that he did a really good job. I got super nervous and had to work myself up to go and say congrats to him. I am such a chicken when it comes to boys I actually like. I could totally have a full conversation with any other boy ever, but when I crush on a boy...Holy Hannah. Talk about mega butterflies and nervousness kicking in. So that was our first encounter. Me telling him that he did a good job playing the piano and then running away from him. Months went by, all I did was watch him from afar (still creepy), until one day the most opportune thing happened. I saw him hanging out with a mutual friend of mine! FATE! So I asked the mutual friend if he was single and he said VERY single. At this point I was already dying. Then I asked him to introduce me to him because I thought that he was super cute and I wanted to get to know him. Our mutual friend talked to him and told him that it would be in his best interest for him to talk to me. So he got my number from our mutual friend and texted me the next day. I FREAKED OUT. That's the understatement of the year. I was like crying I was so happy and because I was so shocked. Things like that only happen in the movies, right? I ended up running into him on campus...awkward considering that we hadn't actually ever met in real life. We both said polite hi's to each other but no conversation. Then that night we had a ward social, and we avoided each other like the bubonic plague. At least I avoided him, who knows what he was doing. So I was thinking this was just going to be one of those things that's super awkward and where nothing actually happens because all we can do is have virtual conversations. Anyway, he ended up asking me out on a date to the Nutcracker at a local theater. November 16, 2011. Perfection. I had a great time. Then we had Thanksgiving break. When we got back, we hung out a few times and then he asked me on another date. December 6, 2011. Then on December 8, 2011 he held my hand and told me that he really liked me! I just about died from a heart attack and pure happiness. The famous Temple Square date happened on December 10, 2011. It was perfection at its finest. I was on cloud nine the whole night. The butterflies would NOT stop! I felt like a giddy school girl. I was all smiles the whole night and the next day. December 12, 2011 we walked to the nearest gas station and got hot chocolate. If I could I think I would spend lots and lots of time with him. He just makes me laugh and he's so good to me and is a complete sweetheart. I can't get over it. I'm in major like with this boy. We'll see where things go.


so basically i'd rather be caught naked than be without this boy in my life.

i got the blues

so the other night i could not sleep at all. i woke up at 4 am and just laid in bed and let my mind just wander. what a horrible idea. first my thoughts turned to school and everything that i needed to accomplish that day. then my thoughts turned to my family and how close i was to being back home with them. then my thoughts finally turned to the inevitable...boys. of course. my best friend is leaving for his mission on january 25th and i'm an emotional wreck. all i want to do is spend every waking moment with him. basically in two weeks i'll be saying bye to him for TWO YEARS and the people of honduras will love him like crazy. i can't even fathom life without him and quite frankly i would rather have anything else but this happen, if i could marry him right this second i would. don't get me wrong, i'm super excited for him to go because it's what he should be doing and he's going to make the perfect missionary. i'm just super scared for what could happen within those two years. i know that's a dumb reason to be upset over this. he's always been here for me and i don't know who i'm going to call up for help or advice or just to have a buddy or who i'll cuddle with now. even though we fight a lot and tend to bug the heck out of each other, i really do love him to death. i've known him for about a year now and yeah we've spent time apart. like breaks and summer, but two years? that's a dang long time. i'll be a senior when he comes back and am going to be getting ready to graduate and maybe i'll be engaged or married or single. who knows. and that's what scares me. i would love to just have these two years go by super fast and have me be so wrapped up in school, that i won't socialize with any boys. but i know myself better than that. i know i'm going to flirt and like other people. which is a good thing right? what if i meet someone better for me than he is? than that would mean there's someone out there who's better for him than i am. we'll just have to wait and see. anxiety attacks galore. i miss him already and he isn't even gone yet. how sad.

why do i smile?

So today I was running errands with a friend and just decided that I would genuinely smile at every person that I made eye contact with. First stop was at a car shop (poor Bruiser is sick). Apparently my dad went to high school with the guy who owned the shop and we had a nice conversation about my dad and what he was like in high school. I was genuinely interested and it was so fun hearing about my dad from people other than our relatives. The second stop was at a car wash. I immediately made eye contact with two of the guys working there and just smiled really big at them. They smiled back and it felt great. Maybe this is the flirty side of me coming out, but I just love the feeling that I get when I smile at someone and they genuinely smile back. Last stop was to Sammy's for a late lunch. There was only one guy working by himself and I was thinking that if I worked alone I would get so lonely! So I decided to just smile and he started talking to us and I'm sure it made him feel a little less lonely. Who knows. Anyway, the point of all this is that I love to smile at people. Sometimes it really surprises them or even yourself.



Because I'm worth it.