new beginnings

so now that a new year has begun and my i have become more in love with writing and being more articulate with it, i have decided to have a fresh start with a new blogggggg!!!

wewt!
i'll miss you blogspot. i really will. you were so easy to deal with. but i'm on to bigger and better things. (hopefully)

my new blog!

eat your hearts out.
i've always hated that phrase...

this is why i love my friends.

just spent the past fifteen minutes as jellison time.
via facebook.
i'm in san antonio.
they're in dallas (probably one room away from each other).
i'm trying to stifle laughs because i'm in the same room as my 29 year old brother.
why?

because we're stalking my ex-boyfriends.
picking the ugliest pictures of them.
posting them for da four to see.
laughing my pants off.

this little guy started it all.

mama mia

so as soon as i got home to dallas, my mom tells me that we're driving to san antonio first thing in the morning so that we can be with my brother, sister-in-law, niece and the new baby. so i literally got to spend about 8 hours at home (most of them spent sleeping) before i was gone again. how sad. but i'm more than happy to be spending time with my brother's family! their daughter is pure joy and now that she's 2, it's great to play with her and make her laugh because she can talk to us clearly and laugh and it's just the best. being with my niece has made me realize that i am NOT at all ready to be a mom and my mother can testify to that. every time anything happens, without fail, i'll yell for my mom to come deal with it. i've been trying to get better (more like my mom is telling me no and forcing me to do things myself) but seriously, there's no way that i'll be having kids anytime soon. not only can i not handle it, but i just want to spend a few solid years with my husband living the newlywed life.

anyway, it's 77 degrees and sunny here in the south and i am loving every bit of it.

season's greetings.

5 days and counting.

chris p. nugget

holy guac.

so i just spent the weekend in california for my best friend's wedding. i am literally OBSESSED with california. the weather was splendid. i couldn't believe that it was december and it felt like that outside. i've totally forgotten what warm weather feels like, seeing that i've been in utah for a good five months straight. i was elated to get away from the cold weather. california and texas have been a dream boat for me. anyway, back to the wedding, it was perfect for the couple. they could care less about all the huge fancy details and they really did focus on what was most important: the fact that they were married in the san diego temple. it's any girls dream come true to get married in a castle and be a princess for a day and that's definitely what she got. they are insanely perfect for each other and it made me really excited for the day when i find the perfect person for me and i can get married to them for time and all eternity. i think i'm almost to the point of being ready to seriously date someone and just fall head over heels for a boy. so bring it.

i'd rather be caught naked...

OH MY GOSH!
I'm obsessed with my life right now. This sounds obnoxious but seriously.
So first of all, 3 more days until I leave Utah!!
I'll be spending Friday, Saturday and part of Sunday in California for my best friend's wedding. Then I go home to Texas on Sunday night. I seriously CANNOT wait. I'm dying to be back home. It's been way way way too long. It's basically gotten to the point where I don't care about anything else that is happening in my life. Finals? Out the window. Kind of. I'm not stressed, I'm just wanting to get everything over with. And I happen to have a new boy in my life. What perfect timing. I know my last blog post was about another boy in my life, but sometimes things happen and your mind gets cleared, very easily, might I add.
So let me just give a quick synopsis of how all of this happened:
First Sunday in my ward, I spot a super cute boy. I immediately call dibs on him (in my mind). Couldn't keep my eyes off of him all during sacrament meeting. Then that Sunday we have a ward social and we do the whole go around in a ginormica circle and introduce ourselves. As if anyone is going to remember anything from doing that, but anyway, I remember him introducing himself and keeping some of his shared facts in the back of my mind. So this was all in August. Throughout the next couple of months all I did was look at him. Creepy, I know. But he was just so adorable! Then one Sunday he accompanied a girl who was singing on the piano. He's an amazing pianist. So I decided to go up to him after sacrament meeting and tell him that he did a really good job. I got super nervous and had to work myself up to go and say congrats to him. I am such a chicken when it comes to boys I actually like. I could totally have a full conversation with any other boy ever, but when I crush on a boy...Holy Hannah. Talk about mega butterflies and nervousness kicking in. So that was our first encounter. Me telling him that he did a good job playing the piano and then running away from him. Months went by, all I did was watch him from afar (still creepy), until one day the most opportune thing happened. I saw him hanging out with a mutual friend of mine! FATE! So I asked the mutual friend if he was single and he said VERY single. At this point I was already dying. Then I asked him to introduce me to him because I thought that he was super cute and I wanted to get to know him. Our mutual friend talked to him and told him that it would be in his best interest for him to talk to me. So he got my number from our mutual friend and texted me the next day. I FREAKED OUT. That's the understatement of the year. I was like crying I was so happy and because I was so shocked. Things like that only happen in the movies, right? I ended up running into him on campus...awkward considering that we hadn't actually ever met in real life. We both said polite hi's to each other but no conversation. Then that night we had a ward social, and we avoided each other like the bubonic plague. At least I avoided him, who knows what he was doing. So I was thinking this was just going to be one of those things that's super awkward and where nothing actually happens because all we can do is have virtual conversations. Anyway, he ended up asking me out on a date to the Nutcracker at a local theater. November 16, 2011. Perfection. I had a great time. Then we had Thanksgiving break. When we got back, we hung out a few times and then he asked me on another date. December 6, 2011. Then on December 8, 2011 he held my hand and told me that he really liked me! I just about died from a heart attack and pure happiness. The famous Temple Square date happened on December 10, 2011. It was perfection at its finest. I was on cloud nine the whole night. The butterflies would NOT stop! I felt like a giddy school girl. I was all smiles the whole night and the next day. December 12, 2011 we walked to the nearest gas station and got hot chocolate. If I could I think I would spend lots and lots of time with him. He just makes me laugh and he's so good to me and is a complete sweetheart. I can't get over it. I'm in major like with this boy. We'll see where things go.


so basically i'd rather be caught naked than be without this boy in my life.

i got the blues

so the other night i could not sleep at all. i woke up at 4 am and just laid in bed and let my mind just wander. what a horrible idea. first my thoughts turned to school and everything that i needed to accomplish that day. then my thoughts turned to my family and how close i was to being back home with them. then my thoughts finally turned to the inevitable...boys. of course. my best friend is leaving for his mission on january 25th and i'm an emotional wreck. all i want to do is spend every waking moment with him. basically in two weeks i'll be saying bye to him for TWO YEARS and the people of honduras will love him like crazy. i can't even fathom life without him and quite frankly i would rather have anything else but this happen, if i could marry him right this second i would. don't get me wrong, i'm super excited for him to go because it's what he should be doing and he's going to make the perfect missionary. i'm just super scared for what could happen within those two years. i know that's a dumb reason to be upset over this. he's always been here for me and i don't know who i'm going to call up for help or advice or just to have a buddy or who i'll cuddle with now. even though we fight a lot and tend to bug the heck out of each other, i really do love him to death. i've known him for about a year now and yeah we've spent time apart. like breaks and summer, but two years? that's a dang long time. i'll be a senior when he comes back and am going to be getting ready to graduate and maybe i'll be engaged or married or single. who knows. and that's what scares me. i would love to just have these two years go by super fast and have me be so wrapped up in school, that i won't socialize with any boys. but i know myself better than that. i know i'm going to flirt and like other people. which is a good thing right? what if i meet someone better for me than he is? than that would mean there's someone out there who's better for him than i am. we'll just have to wait and see. anxiety attacks galore. i miss him already and he isn't even gone yet. how sad.

why do i smile?

So today I was running errands with a friend and just decided that I would genuinely smile at every person that I made eye contact with. First stop was at a car shop (poor Bruiser is sick). Apparently my dad went to high school with the guy who owned the shop and we had a nice conversation about my dad and what he was like in high school. I was genuinely interested and it was so fun hearing about my dad from people other than our relatives. The second stop was at a car wash. I immediately made eye contact with two of the guys working there and just smiled really big at them. They smiled back and it felt great. Maybe this is the flirty side of me coming out, but I just love the feeling that I get when I smile at someone and they genuinely smile back. Last stop was to Sammy's for a late lunch. There was only one guy working by himself and I was thinking that if I worked alone I would get so lonely! So I decided to just smile and he started talking to us and I'm sure it made him feel a little less lonely. Who knows. Anyway, the point of all this is that I love to smile at people. Sometimes it really surprises them or even yourself.



Because I'm worth it.

realization

i gave up on blogging for a while because i am pretty good about keeping a journal. but my journal is downstairs and i just HAD to get some of my thoughts about my life out of my head.

things i've realized:

- sometimes you have to be selfish and stop doing things to please other people
- always be honest with others; it makes everything so much easier
- be honest with yourself
- making lists is always a great pastime and it helps me to sort things out
- don't take things for granted because pretty soon things will be gone (ie: for two years)
- love unconditionally
- don't be afraid to meet new people and do new things
- BE OUTGOING
- sometimes it's okay to be a tiny bit forward
- summertime is so much more enjoyable than winter
- BUDGET BUDGET BUDGET
- don't give up towards the end, you've put in that much hard work. why not just finish it?
- never forget the Lord
- be 100% faithful in the little things


ayeeeeeeeeeeeee. i don't even know how to explain how this year is coming along. it's been a mixture of so many things. it's definitely quite the adjustment from last year but i'm learning to love every bit of it.
missions are great, but i want all my boys to come back to me already! i can't wait to see what two years from now will bring, but for now, i'm more than happy to live for today.

hawaii 5-0

Here is my trip to Hawaii summed up in a few of the many million pictures that were taken.
I CAN'T WAIT TO LIVE HERE.


Probably one of the most beautiful things I will ever witness. Haleakala sunrise. We were above the clouds. Too gorgeous.

We are babies.

Bishop's Museum. I have always had a love/hate relationship with Science Museums.

Shaking my hips at the PCC. Sister was so embarrassed of me. But hey, our friend got us in for FREE!

Needle Head, or as I like to call it, Pinhead Point.

Hawaii Temple.

This is proof that I can get very tan.

At Matsumoto's getting shaved ice. Honestly you have not eaten shaved ice until you have eaten it in Hawaii. Snow cones ARE NOT the same thing as shaved ice.

Me, Bobo, Cousin Chad, Erika at a national park.

Describes our relationship perfectly. (he's pushing me)

Our mother made us climb this tree, but it turns out that NONE of us know how to climb trees appropriately.

Bobo and I at the Hawaii Temple.

Bobo and I at BYU Hawaii.

in n out

i have arrived safely from my travels to hawaii.
i'm more than obsessed with those islands.
mother is already planning a vacation there next year.
Count me in!
now i'm packing and then headed out to utah.


ROADTRIPPIN.



i'll be back to put up more pictures of hawaii aka my homeland.

harry potter

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 was AMAZING! It was quite the experience. I got chills and I even teared up a little bit, no real crying, but my heart strings got tugged on a couple of times. I was relieved that we didn't have a "Jazz" in our theater. Let me tell you the story about Jazz while watching Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 in the movie theater. OH.MY.GOSH. So we're all sitting there enjoying our front row seats the night of the movie, all gussied up in our costumes. And then comes the part where Dobby dies. I love Jazz and all, but this was too much. I was glad I was not sitting next to her because I think I might have punched her. Anyway, Dobby dies and all you hear is Jazz SOBBING; not politely shedding a tear or two. It was as if own of her closest family members had died, one of those weepings. Everyone in the theater kept looking over and every once in a while making shushing sounds. Craziness.

But I do have a few stories from this midnight premiere. Well, first of all, it was only a party of two: my sister and I. I had invited Jennifer to come along with us, but she dislikes Harry Potter and only would go if it was a huge social event. It wasn't, so it was sissy and I for the night. So we got to the theater at around 10 pm; we would have been earlier, but my sister was a little preoccupied. So 10 pm it was and there are NO seats left in the theater besides ones that annoying people were saving and ones in the very very front. So we do the walk of shame to the front of the theater and take our seats, while preparing ourselves for some neck craning. Then one of the managers comes in and says that everyone HAS to scoot in towards the center of the theater to allow for more seats to open up. I immediately stand up and start running towards the top of the theater; not even kidding, I was in a full sprint up the stairs. Of course no one moves so I start giving people the stink eye, waiting for them to feel horrible. It finally paid off, and I secured two prime seats. I'm proud of myself. I know I can be a shy, little one, but I definitely have my shining moments.

All in all, the movie was magical. Literally and figuratively. I loved every moment of it, and I can't wait to have all the movies in my possession. So that I can watch all the magic unfold from beginning to end. And since I have a very long plane flight ahead of me, I might take the seventh book and re-read it. We'll see, maybe I'm just a little ambitious right now.

But for the time being,
Mischief Managed.

summertime is prime

so i just finished my freshman year of college journal. i love to go back through it and read about different times in my life. after reading it, i can't help but look back and laugh and just think: "i am so me." which might be dumb to say because you're probably thinking: DUH, you iddy.

it's crazy to me that just one year ago, i had been at college for a month. and after reading allison's tumblr post about her boy life right now (she's just starting her freshman year), i can't help but laugh and think of how similar our lives are. it's funny to me now, but in the moment i was STRESSED! i say this now only because i have had close to zero interactions with any boy that i care about, but dang is it dumb to stress out about boys. life is so much easier when i can just relax and not have to worry about anything. summertime is prime. think about it, you get your tan on, spend countless hours in water: whether it be a swimming pool, a lake, or the ocean, the sun shines almost everyday. and who doesn't love a good summer storm every once in a while? i just love how relaxed and kind of mindless everything is.

i know i have continually kept thinking about how ready i am to go back to school and be back in provo with my friends, and call me cheesy, but i was listening to some good old tayswift last night and the song "never grow up" came on and that was it for me. i thought about how fast my time at home has gone by and how easy everything used to be. i didn't have to worry about paying rent, or paying for gas, or budgeting. i love my parents and my siblings so much! who would ever want to leave home! haha. i'm sure i'll change my mind about all of this once i get up to utah, but for now those are my thoughts.

i am more than excited for sophomore year and can't wait to see what will happen.

here are just a few things that i have learned after reading through my freshman year journal:
1. Preston Kutney is too indie to date me.
2. I need to learn how to budget. Or i will sink into a black hole called debt.
3. I need a new boy type. As great as bad boys are, they are not good for the soul.
4. Summer is the best time of year.
5. Choose my friends wisely. They effect me.
6. It's way okay if I don't get married anytime soon. My husband will come.
7. Always be myself.
8. Be honest and open with people. But choose what I say very carefully.
9. Be a lady. No one likes trashy.
10. Don't let boys run my life or my emotions.
11. Always take time to think.
12. Be brave!
13. Laugh and breathe. Everything will be okay.
and last but not least,

14. Marry someone that will allow me to have children that look like this:she's a babe.
she's a natural.
she already poses for cameras.
model status.

Excuse me for being just a tad bit obsessed with my niece.

road trippin

so for the past two weeks, i, and some other family members, have been all over the lovely state of texas. san antonio for one week and then a little place called wolfforth for another week. and after many miles and hours of traveling, can i just say that I LOVE TEXAS. i vowed that i would never be one of those people who bragged about texas, but after seeing all that it has to offer, i'm in love. san antonio is kind of like a little mexico. i loved being with my brother and sister-in-law and niece and i loved going to sea world everyday for a week. and after living in a little city north of dallas all my life, i have come to appreciate my hometown and how quaint it is and how i can just drive 30 minutes and be in the heart of a big city. texas is just too perfect. and then there's wolfforth, which is super close to lubbock and texas tech. but i just loved how country it was. you could literally see for miles and not have houses or other buildings blocking your view. and i loved that when it was night time, you could look up and see all the stars. i really do think that i could live out in the country. but at the same time i say that now, but i'm sure that after i lived out there for a good two weeks, i would want to come right back to the city.
but honestly, if my husband turned out to be a cowboy who grew up on a farm and wanted to live on one, i would be more than happy to. i have a soft spot for country music and cowboys and trucks and hick towns. they are so fascinating to me.

now i'm off to hawaii, which is a totally different experience than all the above.

tumbling 4ever

I've done it.
I've added ANOTHER social networking site to my repertoire.


I am an avid tumblrer now.

Tumblr me.

We'll see how long I keep it up for.

don't test these besties

These are my best friends.

The one on the far left just departed for her freshman year at BYU. Summer semester. Best choice she possibly could have made in her whole entire life. She's the honest one. I love her for it. I know that I can tell her anything and everything and she will honestly tell me what she thinks about the situation. Even though she is the youngest, I look up to her so much. WWAD? Totes mcgotes.

The next one is on her way back home from Mexico. She went on a study abroad for her major. When I was little, I idolized her, and I still do. I have been through thick and thin with this one. Having a crush on the same boy at the ages of 15 and 16 was quite tricky. But also having the whole world know that we were "sharing a boy" (sister j) was too perfect.

The next one is currently in Utah, for the whole summer. KILL ME! She was my roommate all through freshman year and I miss her dearly. She is such a perfect example to me and is so great in social situations; she's not awkward at all. I wish she would pack up and come home right this instant. But, she is a little preoccupied at the moment...a marriage better come out of this. That's all I have to say.

NIFMINNAELIS.
ze four.

I love you all.
BIFFLES.
I cannot wait to be living in the same city again.

we stalk.

So since this is a blog about my life, here and now, I decided that I would put up some little websites that I enjoy filling my spare time with. Don't judge. Some I am much fonder of than others.
First, pinterest, something that I have blogged about before and I stand by what I said earlier. I could spend HOURS on that site. Literally. You can find anything and everything. And what's so great, is that you see lovely pictures and ideas and you can go to a blog or link about that picture and find out exactly how to get or do what you see. It's incredible!
The Daybook. Okay, so I feel like if your Mormon, you would for sure have already seen this blog many times by now. But if you haven't heard of it, check it out! This girl is so cute and just blogs away about style and life learned lessons. It's great.
A Cup of Jo. Love this blog!! This is another one that I could spend hours on because she puts up so many links within each of her posts. So so good.
My Yellow Sandbox. I recently discovered this. I'm not the world's biggest fan, but she recently did this thing where she had different hairstyles everyday for thirty days and I found some of the hairstyles very cute, so I decided to bookmark it for later days.
Kristine. Or Polly. So this blog is cute. This girl and her husband recently moved to Japan so it's been interesting reading about the different cultures. Also a style blog.
Elle Apparel. I don't follow this one too closely, but I do peruse her website every so often for really good do it yourself projects. She has plenty of sewing step by steps for the cutest skirts!
Ginas Skinny Recipes. This is a great blog if you're looking for healthy and easy food to cook! And since I'll be living in an apartment next year, I have taken quite an interest in anything that has to do with easy cooking.
Atlantic-Pacific. Also another cute style blog. I love her sense of fashion. It makes me super excited to get back to Utah and have ALL my clothing back! Seriously, packing for a few months is deathly. I ended up packing close to nothing, which surprised me a lot especially considering how heavy my bag was.
Rockstar Diaries. This blog is so cute! I recently stumbled upon it. Seriously, a gem. She is Mormon and fashionable. This gives me hope that I can look cute and be fun after I get married.
The Baker Chick. Also another blog about cooking.
Matt Clayton Photography. Photography blog. Good good good.
Now for my wedding slash engagement video and wedding idea websites. Haha. It really is sad that I have these bookmarked and check them regularly.
Ryan Southwell.
Haugen Creative.
Chris McClain.
Brinton Films.
Kale Fitch.
Green Wedding Shoes.
Ben Christensen.
Once Wed.
And these are just random websites that I like to look at.
Republic of the Spirit. Fashion.
Vogue is the New Bible. Fashion.
Lovely Locks. Hair.
Little Things. Life.
50 Life Secrets and Tips. Life changer.
Pretty Things. Mush pot.
Spex. I will get a pair of these glasses one day.
Boy en Girl. Mush pot.
Etiquette for a Gentleman. Life.
Etiquette for a Lady. Life.
Like a Little. BYU. I'm 100% positive that this will be a go-to website for me while I am on campus. It cracks me up!
Ramsey Carroll. Honestly the most unique person I will ever know. I secretly try to be like him in certain ways. Love this child and everything he stands for.

Aye. I need to stop stalking people. Honestly, this is scary. But everyone does it, so I feel quite justified in stalking and my abilities to stalk people. Super stalker. Word.

this little piggie

So just recently a ton of family came in town for my brothers Eagle Court of Honor and my sister's homecoming talk. So life has been a little crazy and family friendly. I still do not have a job. I have learned how to window shop though, which is such a blessing for me! I have NEVER gone online shopping and not been tempted to and/or put an object in my shopping cart. I was shocked and pleasantly surprised when I realized what an accomplishment that I had made.

First came my brother, sister-in-law and their daughter!! Oh how I love that family and totally and completely want to be just like them when I have a family of my own. Seeing them just makes me want to find a husband and start a family asap. Their daughter is to die for. Little Kate Emi is such a doll. I love spending time with her; she is such a good time. I honestly wish with all my heart that all my daughters end up looking like her. People say that she looks just like me when I was little, so it looks like my wish is very close to becoming a reality one day!

This girl is such a smart one. She is constantly on the go, which I love! She rarely ever whines or cries. Seriously my children better be just like her. She is such a good baby. I was so sad to see them go!! But I will for sure be taking a drive down to the dirty south to see this sweet thing as well as her mom and dad before I head back to Utah in August.

reunited and it feels so good.

MY SISTER IS HOME!

Holy Hannah.
I thought that this day would never come.

On Thursday, May 19, my lovely Erika Mari Riggs returned to America.
We awoke bright and early and waited at the airport for nearly an hour and a half before she made an appearance.
Literally the most painstaking hour and a half of my life.
I'm just so thrilled that she made it back to us in one piece!
Her english is gnarly. Aka super bad.
She attained quite the accent while away from us though.
I love her to death.
Sisters and besties for life.
This year is going to be quite the thrill.

can't stop won't stop

My sister comes home in exactly 3 days.
After being away at college and then going straight on a mission, you think that I would be used to this whole not seeing her thing.
OF COURSE NOT.
There were so many times when I would have given an arm and a leg to be able to call her up and tell her about my latest drama or my latest obsession.
Honestly I can't think about anything else.
My best friend in the whole wide world will be joining me this summer in Texas and also next year in Utah. How splendid!
I can't wait for all of our adventures.
As the good old Jack Johnson would say:
"It's always better when we're together."

I hope that she enjoys her fliiiiiiiiiiiight.
That one was for you, frila.
$33$+0r$ 4 lyf3.

Anyway, this past weekend was quite an enjoyable one.
I was able to attend a pre-ception for a girl that I grew up with.
So insane that people I grew up with are starting to get married now.
Not the oldies that I always looked up to, but never dared interact with.
People who I talked and interacted with on a regular basis. Craziness.
The theme of the reception was shabby chic. Everything was absolutely adorable!
Homemade rootbeer, mason jars with candles in them, cowboy boots. Ah.
This girl is through and through a true Texan. I loved it every second of it.
Seeing how in love they bride and groom were made me long for a partner myself.
I keep telling myself to be patient but I'm aching to share my life with someone else!
I'm hoping that this year will be very kind to me in the boy department.

No more dating jerks.
Although I have vowed myself to that decision many times before, I can't help but love the bad boys!! I just swoon over them all day every day. It's bad. I need to curb my appetite. NOW.

daddy dearest and i

summertime and the living is easy.

I've been home for a total of 11 days now.
Which is super crazy to me, because it feels like months.
I have yet to find a job.
Actually I have yet to do anything quite yet.
I've applied to a couple of places, so we'll see how it goes.
I'm hopeful!!
Erika comes home in 13 daysssss.
I turn 19 in a month.
We travel to Hawaii in 2 months.
I'm dying to have some excitement in my life.
In the words of hannah montana:
"life's what you make it, so let's make it rock."
I wish I had more exciting news, but that's all for now.


On the upside, I have gotten very good at finding entertaining websites and blogs.
Once I get around to it, I'll put my favorites up in hurrr.
And I started some pin boards on pinterest. I am connected on way too many levels.

xoxo.

oh hail no

so after two flight cancellations

and more than my fair share of time spent in an airport,
i'm finally

HOME!

thank goodness.

here's to the next few months.
can't wait to get started.

on another wave, i just spent three amazing days in
california.
i love that state.
i wouldn't mind spending some time there.
or get married there.
or have my husband be from there.
or raise children there.
you know.

lazy days on the beach, long days under the sun.
too good to be true.
this one's for the girls.
can't believe that i'll be spending four long months away from my besties.
and two long years away from these babies.it's been a good run.
can't wait to be reunited in 2014.

geeze louise.

well as for me, i'll be enjoying a rice dish in bed while watching the lizzie mcguire movie.

i love being home.

rolling in the deep

2 days until CALIFORNIA
6 days until TEXAS
1 month until ERIKA COMES HOME
3 months until HAWAII
4 months to become a perfect HOMEMAKER and make a million DOLLARS.

ready...
set...
GO.

i gotta get through this

so i'm sitting in the library right now, dying to go home and get in bed and sleep myself all the way into next week. too bad that can't actually happen. i have two finals tomorrow, one on monday, two on tuesday, and then i'm free. but not really, in between all of the studying, i have to pack up my whole life and move it into my mom's cousin's house, pack for the texas heat, and pack for the lovely california. yes, i am making the trek to california next week wednesday. i am SO excited. i have not been to california for recreation in quite some time, so this is going to be quite the treat.
shopping, laying out, being on a beach, being with friends.
such a great way to end this amazing year.

as sad as i am to say bye to some of my best friends, i am more than excited for this upcoming year.
some things to look forward to:
eurika coming home!!!!! i miss my sister dearly.
family bonding time x ten thousand million bajillion.
getting a job and making bank.
being tan and feeling sunshine. i really do forget what this feels like.
swimming always. one word: mermaids.
hawaii.
the apartment life.
new people.
many many weekend trips.

so many things to cross off my life-list this year.
can't wait for the memories.

currently loving: someone like you (adele), life in technicolor II (coldplay), you got growing up to do (joshua radin)

sundresses and sweatervests

HERE COMES THE SUN!!!!

Seriously. I have been loving the sunshine so much. It was in the 70s this past week. But of course during the weekend, Utah decided to dump some snow on me. Sick joke. I'm ticked. Just when I start to pack up my winter clothes, it blizzards. Saturday I was wearing shorts and a t-shirt, and then Sunday morning I wake up to a winter wonderland. Ridiculous.

Anyway this summer I have a huge desire to sew and cook all the time. I don't know what's gotten into me. Maybe it's because I've been looking at pinterest every spare second I get. My goals are to become more of a homemaker and have more motherly instincts. Especially considering that I'll be kicking it in the big leagues next year. No more cannon center and dining plus for me. bummer.But seriously.


Look how cute this shower curtain is. Originally from Anthro, but you could totally make it. I just might tackle this baby this summer. We'll see.





If you haven't looked at pinterest, I highly suggest it.

I can spend hours on end on that website.
I'm fully obsessed now.
Enjoy.

currently loving: on melancholy hill (gorillaz), miracles (norwegian recycling)

decisions, decisions

They do not love, that do not show their love.
-William Shakespeare

Holy hannah. Talk about roller coasters. I've been on one heck of an emotional one this past month, and I'm sure it'll get worse. Especially since mother dearest was town and then left me all too fast. One week is NOT enough to fit in a full school year's worth of quality mother-daughter bonding time!!

I love these babies.

Well, she came in town for the BYU LUAU. Ahhhh so glad that I got to do this with my dearest friends. It was quite the experience and it just solidified my love for Polynesians and the islands. I cannot wait to go to Hawaii this summer! I'm counting down the days until I go back to my beloved land. Ugh, I wish I was Hawaiian! I love telling people that I am, because non-Polynesians would never be able to tell the difference.

Okay so mother and I got to go shopping plenty of times. Whenever I go shopping with mom, I always find the biggest steals!! It's ridiculous. She always tells me that I have too many clothes, but she's the one who instigated my love for shopping! In fact, she encourages it. My sister-in-law asked me if I even moved out after seeing my closet back at home. Ridiculous. I try to make up excuses, but I am a shopaholic. It's unfortunate. I shop when I'm sad, I shop when I'm happy, I shop online, I shop not online, I am constantly shopping. I live and breathe it. I have dreams about shopping. So disappointing when you wake up and realize that everything you bought in your dreams stayed in your dreams.

Now to get back to study-udy-udying.
finals.projects.tests.papers.bleh.

currently loving: pretty girl rock (keri hilson), all summer (kid kudi), boots of danger (tokyo police club)

remember when?

"Life's but short. You might as well be amusing."

- C o c o C h a n e l

Oh how I love quotes from Miss Chanel.
She's so great.

After talking to my friends, I've realized that I've been living in the future way too much.
So I have made a goal to live in the present.
That doesn't mean I'm going to stop counting down the days until my mom comes to town
or until I get to go back to Texas, but I am going to stop saying,
"Next year I'll have a blast."
or "Next year I'll make tons of good friends."
or "This Summer is going to be so much fun."
or "Next year I'll get a serious boyfriend." (haha. joking)
You only get to have the freshman experience once, so why not live it up?

On a different note, I have another type of sickness.
On top of my Bieber Fever I also have a horrible case of
WEDDING FEVER.

So bad. I'm only eighteen and yet I have my
dress,
location,
season,
colors,
cake,
EVERYTHING
except for a husband all picked out.
I'm so lame.
During my free time I search wedding photos and websites and videos.
I love looking at engagement photos and videos.
I'm fully addicted. This is a problem.
It doesn't help that some girls that I knew from summer semester (aka girls my age)
ARE GETTING MARRIED.
Insane.
Hopefully when my sister comes home from her mish she'll be able to put me in the right frame of mind.

Oh my.
So I haven't blogged in a while, but I have had some wonderful surprises come in the mail for me.
Oh how I love online shopping.
Actually, it's the death of me.
So many stores steal my hard earned money from me.
Darn them.
Check these babies out:

I have been eying this beautiful cheetah print trapper hat for a good few months, and I finally gave in and made the purchase. Needless to say, I LOVE IT.
Actually I love anything and everything cheetah print.




Holy mama. I guess I'm addicted to faux fur, but did I actually make two purchases of faux fur on the same shipment? I died when I saw this little coat. So lovely, especially for the nice springish days that will hopefully be arriving soon.






Brown Riding Boots. Need I say more?







Bought these little ones in a darker brown. They're a tweedish fabric, so not too combaty for my liking. Still waiting for the a message in my email telling me that I got a package.

currently loving: Mykonos (fleet foxes), boy lilikoi (Jonsi),
Star of Wonder/None Shall Pass ft. Aesop Rock (Tor/Sufjan Stevens)

never say never

That should be me, with Justin caressing my face and singing One Less Lonely Girl to me.


confession:
I HAVE BIEBER FEVER.
YES, I watched the Never Say Never film in 3D.
YES, Justin was basically in the same room as me.
YES, I loved every second of it.
YES, I screamed.
And YES, I may have shed a few tears.
It was more than worth it.

Safe to say that movie changed my life.
currently loving: anything and everything justin bieber
that's all. there's nothing else I love more than bieber today.

the final countdown

7 days until Bobo's 14th birthday.

9 days until daddy dearest comes to Provo.

17 days until mama bear comes to Provo.

21 days until luau.
4 weeks until general conference in Salt Lake City.

7 weeks until I go back to Texas.

2 months until Sister comes back from Brazil!
3 months until I turn 19.

4 months until I go to Hawaii.

So many fun things to look forward to in the next couple of months.

currently loving: blow (ke$ha), here comes the sun (the beatles)

welcome to the den

Hello.
I'm Jennae.

Meet my home away from home family.
I've decided to start blogging.
Bon Appétit!

currently loving: u + me (dan black), forever (walter meego)